Kody Brown opens up about his thoughts on his past marriages and the lessons he’s learned, in an interview with People. Kody split from Christine, Janelle, and Meri, and these experiences have left him with a lot to reflect upon.
“The process of this entire experience has been a total rollercoaster ride,” Kody, 54, shares, “The rollercoaster was fun for a long time, even though it was challenging. We had a lot of challenges. It’s just moved to a place where there’s been a lot of heartbreak.”
Kody reflects on his past actions and acknowledges had he handled things differently, he could have salvaged his relationships.
“I could have done a lot better,” Kody admits. “Every day I think about a place where if I would’ve managed things differently, if I would’ve said something differently, we might have moved forward in a different way. It’s hard to say that because you get in a place where you feel like, ‘Is my life still headed the direction that it’s supposed to?‘”
Kody thinks the erosion of trust within the family led to fractures in the relationships. The dynamics of a plural marriage arrangement is complex in itself. While Kody had it all, now he doesn’t. “We didn’t find ourselves working together the same way,” he adds, “I felt like I became cynical about the future and I just couldn’t see it.“
Kody was angry when Christine left, but he wasn’t compassionate. He wanted to dig deeper into his relationship with Janelle, but he thinks that he “wasn’t managing it right.”
“What will move us forward will be the grace, the love, and the forgiveness,” he hopes. “You have to express understanding and hope that at the end of an era for us as a family, we still have hope of a friendship and a loving or kind relationship with each other in the future because we’re bound forever through our kids.” Kody has 18 children.